30 October 2009

wa so long no update le. so freaking bad mood, will my day come back? i don think so but i hope so. but i know wont be back de.
i ask myself this question again and again repeat and repeat again.
do i look strong infront of friend ?
its been so long i am still like that.
Soon going 2010year . Why cant my mindset be more happiness. i hope i can go back to the imm giant working place to start all over again.

10 October 2009

Now is 5.41am yet i still blog.

This sentences i write to u 'we stead we break is my fault, and you don already love me why i mus continue love u til now' cause i just cant let it go but i have to. why i make myself til so xingku. At first i thought i and u stead together we will last long more den your ex but im wrong we are not even last long den ur ex. you said yourself a failure but i dont tink u are failure cause im the one who create it, cause you alway concern care love me but im jus a fucker and you are not failure im the one is the most useless stupid failure and im jus a passerby to you afterall last few months we had been together. I thought we can be forever then all couples and you told me you also thought we can be together forever but who changed so fast? ANSWER is me im changed. im changed to no longer last time care concern abt u liao. but i regreted!! so what if i regreted . time oso cannot turn back . I had to accept the fact what. and you of cause easy say those sentences to me cause the painful and mei ren yao is me lehs not you. YA last time you painful so now retribution liao right i now suffering more painful then your last time.

i think my this post not emo already hor?.
hais why i go eastcoastpark! why i stay bukitbatok! why am i born out!

07 October 2009

Hmm why my mind just cant stop thinkin of YOU. its already been 5mths le lehs. knn sia.
you easy forgot me cause you maybe got guy jio you or you admire someone already but me lehs , or you already got boyfriend le. but me lehs FUCK UP. angry myself hate myself.
its already quite long le yet i still cant give up on you and erase you at my mind. Mani of my friend tell me Cheerup dont wei le yi ge nu hai sad not worth it. i told them you think i wan sad de mehs? i keep tell myself when is my deadline of die. i should just die and vanish in this stupid world. LOVE is just a hurtful danger thing den anything else. My blog my post all is emo emo emo. When will be the Day that bright me up. Full of darkness i having now. So scary lor. I jus being so noob sia. already 5months le lehs!!

03 October 2009

What i had been doin this few days . The memory of the memory is still kept following my mind where ever i go. why cant i jus erase you in my stupid bastard brain? is so fkin hard to erase did u noe that? i know yours is easy but nevermind la , never blame u at all cause is my fault. hais without u is really killing me like hell. i jus hope when i sleeping you are alway pei-in me in my dream and i of cause don wanna wake up til i die. why my blog alway so emo sadness? cause i just cant pull up myself, i cant make myself stronger as before as last time. i have been telling myself smile where ever im sad or anyhow go thinking. but the tears is the stronger den my smile. i know you wan me continue my life. okies i will continue de. but if got something happen to me then is too bad. dont know why when some other people is sad or what i can confront them but i jus cant do it for myself from secondary school til now. i know my life is full of darkness right now but i just have to carry on wif my stupid life.
My life is really dam sucks lor, still got Body problem but i wont say out what problem. why the tjw is no longer like last time joker or what . Now emo-ing is my best job to do then joker . hais. who can help me T_T i really dam xingku la!!! i keep feel wanting to sms you but i keep telling myself dont, is so hard to tell myself but i did it. never mind don worry about me (: hehes