back to normal

yo hello all (: happy christmas day. hahas, hope u all happy with your own couple (: but when i just now woke up. i heard a awful words telling me, lets be friend back, cause she just cant forget her ex but i what to do? also cannot force her to be back with me ma. but nevermind. you happy jiu hao le. (:

10 days more.

Hello all, wa so long never update my blog le. how you guys?
hope you all are having fun. i 10 more days to enlistment to NS. hais. sometime i just wanna to know why i just find a simple relationship that i love? why i cant be like other couple so sweet and lovely?

Hello all (:

Today i sleep for the whole day. never eat from morning to midnight . hahas erm miss my parents sia they at genting right now. LOLs. time to give up already (:
Erm me soon going to NS in less then 2 months . hahas finally sia. All my buddy friend i'm going to join you all in NS already. woohoo (:
wow no more sadness post le. hahas good right me

Tired

Time passes really really fast, now is November already yet i still cant forget about her in my mind. How i really wish that i don't have a heart that keeps me alive thinking those sadness past. All this 6 months i been thinking and thinking about you and my own problem i know is stupid but what to do? I really fucking dam regret of doing or saying those things to you, and i know you wont come back to me anymore. You know what? from 8th may 7.30pm to 10th may is my first time go Malaysia and i really miss you dam alot. and u wrote a small notes for me and behind wrote don't break with you ): , how i wish i really can die. zhen de hen tong ku ni zhi dao ma? i few more months and weeks i going to NS le i will miss you deadly. I really need you back but i know answer is cannot but nevermind. Thanks for the day that you given me pei-ing me and
You asked me this question before 'Hais do you still love me?' and i already know the answer when you haven say out. Time to fade you will fade. Time to give up you will give up. Time to say good bye to me i will say good bye to you first. i really miss you badly. hais really envy that guy that be with you right now. jealous and hurt = DIE! >,<

TheStory

Now already 5.20am in the morning but i still post,

TheStory : When i was in secondary school i already think of commit suicide. dont ask me why, only some of my friends know why. Hmmm when i was in sec 2 i don't know what is love until sec 4 graduated den slowly understand what is love but still not sure, until i met a girl that live near me which i met her on East Coast Park and she is the one brighten my day up when i feel sick lonely and sad plus she is the girl who thought me and gave me what real love is. Until now my mindset still all about her, is already 5mths yet i still cant forget about her. i really regretted what i had done in the past to you ,etc never treat u well or ...... , but i know now no use of saying it, cause u got boyfriend now, but i still wanna to said thanks for the 4mths we been together, hoping you will come back, but i know is impossible, its alright. but I'm really happy for you that you got boyfriend le. hahas, last long with him ba. i have nothing to say le.
thanks for taking care of me when we are at JP last time when I'm dizzy + sickness. and 9.56pm the show is the first time you came to my house watch the show after that pei you go home. hais, nevermind takecare my lover, hope u happy everyday. don't study so much when you got headache and rest well plus relax more often (: . I'm finally happy le Yeah hahas ;D

Moodless

i don't know what to say. Today when i woke up i ji dao heard a xi bei sadness thingy and my tears start to drop abit and heng i control it. i this few weeks before sleep think many past thingy keep ly on bed roll and look at my wall for 2hours or more den that den can sleep. sleep awhile wake up suddenly think of her. make me drop tears non stop.
Why some people cannot born just like a human being? why human cannot just be like human lehs? why born out got weirdweird stuff??? i everytime look at my parts of my body i really dam moodless like fcuking hell and dont know what to comments. i keep tryin to smile to myself when i saw some of my parts of body and i know is retarded right but bo bian i dont wanna drop my tears anymore but i noe i cant do it. i really damn envy other people lor. i really still dont know why am i born out into this world. fucking god , go die la hor or make me disappear in this world.

30 October 2009

wa so long no update le. so freaking bad mood, will my day come back? i don think so but i hope so. but i know wont be back de.
i ask myself this question again and again repeat and repeat again.
do i look strong infront of friend ?
its been so long i am still like that.
Soon going 2010year . Why cant my mindset be more happiness. i hope i can go back to the imm giant working place to start all over again.