03 October 2009

What i had been doin this few days . The memory of the memory is still kept following my mind where ever i go. why cant i jus erase you in my stupid bastard brain? is so fkin hard to erase did u noe that? i know yours is easy but nevermind la , never blame u at all cause is my fault. hais without u is really killing me like hell. i jus hope when i sleeping you are alway pei-in me in my dream and i of cause don wanna wake up til i die. why my blog alway so emo sadness? cause i just cant pull up myself, i cant make myself stronger as before as last time. i have been telling myself smile where ever im sad or anyhow go thinking. but the tears is the stronger den my smile. i know you wan me continue my life. okies i will continue de. but if got something happen to me then is too bad. dont know why when some other people is sad or what i can confront them but i jus cant do it for myself from secondary school til now. i know my life is full of darkness right now but i just have to carry on wif my stupid life.
My life is really dam sucks lor, still got Body problem but i wont say out what problem. why the tjw is no longer like last time joker or what . Now emo-ing is my best job to do then joker . hais. who can help me T_T i really dam xingku la!!! i keep feel wanting to sms you but i keep telling myself dont, is so hard to tell myself but i did it. never mind don worry about me (: hehes

23 September 2009

Wow so fast 23 September, time passes pretty fast. hahas. life is jus so bored when you have nothing to do. jus like me lor so bored til now come in post. hahas.
Wait my NS til wanna phe chek liao -_-
nth to post about it . hahas. takecare guys.


EH Friend u finally out liao. hahas grats.

21 September 2009

Now is 21 september , 7.10am in the morning. i still posting. I cant sleep, cause got some problem i having right now, the problem is my mind is jus cant stop thinkin about her. i know she alr fade and give up but i jus totally cant stop thinkin abt her. i stupid right people don love mi le i still love her and miss her. hahas (: , nvm la i don give a damn. only me sad what not her sad so i don worry. cos she happi jiu hao. i noe she already take me as a invisble and bo chup me liao. its okies. my mind so painful right now like a aeroplane or explosion in my head right now. but i don wan to stop the postin. still got many things to write.

dono how mani i post alr from dono when til now all sadness emo words. cause i alr say i will be a emo and bad boy le. so my postin i guess will keep on emo til don't know when.

i still wondering when is my NS. if next year i go in NS is two years and a half months. i don't know is truth anot, all my friends said one. nvm two years and a half months lor.
hahas Toh JiAwEi u are jus so stubborn den all among your friends. MY LIFE NOW IS JUS SO LIFELESS GUILTY AND REGRET!!

17September to 18September

hello all people i had not been update recently.
i jus had to say something in my blog, those who see my blog and dono what am i talkin so please don ask. if those who know den good for u.

if i never say out, the situation will be the same as last time. if i say out the situation also will be like last time. HOW AM I GOING TO FACE THIS THING AGAIN, FEEL SO GUILTY. Wat the hell la. this year 2009 i keep guilty and regret what i have done, i told myself can i jus end my life? the guilty and regret will carry on and carry on wif mi for my whole life. the pain tat i carry is so painful. my mind still got her somemore. GOD FUCK U LA.!! JUS KILLED ME IN ONE SHOT LA.

03 September 2009

now is 9am i still posting and after for so long i finally update now. This few days i had been doin some foolish things. but i will still keep it inside my heart and mind and keep on facing the problem after i have received it. every single night after we break up, my mind my heart automically emo and negative thinking. i will try not to go fan ai ni animore and ever le. nobody will know what im thinking so ok la i will ren zu myself mo mo de cheng shou. wont harass u wont disturb u til u wanna meet me or wanna sms me or what ba.

Hello People how life ? ask u all ar. Joker buangstun reali fun? but i don tink so. i will try my best change in this months.

THIS YEAR 2009 IS MY SUPER DAM SUAY YEAR, dono what i do is alway WRONG, GUILTY and REGRET. hope tis year faster over and reali start a new year. hope she faster find her new boyfriend and really hope she will be more happi wif her boyfriend. Those who be her Boyfriend is so Lucky. she is really a nice girl i said. btw on 29August2009 i saw a girl which i don expect to see it when she jus appear infront of me at Cine. and go pool i saw a girl jus look like you around percent 95%. hais. hope you will faster get over it and erase our past and our mermory. good luck in findin a new boyfriend. Commit suicide is really my lover i guess. i had nth to do animore. jus nw quarrel wif my dad so dam jialat. dont worry ba. i will be fine.

btw sorri for making u alway so late sleep. sorri for making nightmare. sorri about ur parents concern abt me. sorri for what i did in the past and few days. wont go do it again animore.

10 August 2009

Hello all im back.
=] now is 7.06am and yet i haven sleep yet.
To GOD: God help me things, if u wanna punish me oso can but jus help me tis and i had spoken to u alr. thanks =]

TINKING YOU ALWAY.
LOVING YOU ALWAY.
you all shld noe who im refer to and u oso shld noe i refering to u!

25July2009

WOOHOO 25july2009 around 4am midnite i jus make a new refreshment of myself. HAHAS~ guess what? u all sure dono what i had done to myself =D woohoo. cos i had done something to myself lalalalalalala SURPRIZE HAHAS DON TELL U ALL~ GO GUESS BA =]
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