Today i sleep for the whole day. never eat from morning to midnight . hahas erm miss my parents sia they at genting right now. LOLs. time to give up already (:
Erm me soon going to NS in less then 2 months . hahas finally sia. All my buddy friend i'm going to join you all in NS already. woohoo (:
wow no more sadness post le. hahas good right me
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Tired
Time passes really really fast, now is November already yet i still cant forget about her in my mind. How i really wish that i don't have a heart that keeps me alive thinking those sadness past. All this 6 months i been thinking and thinking about you and my own problem i know is stupid but what to do? I really fucking dam regret of doing or saying those things to you, and i know you wont come back to me anymore. You know what? from 8th may 7.30pm to 10th may is my first time go Malaysia and i really miss you dam alot. and u wrote a small notes for me and behind wrote don't break with you ): , how i wish i really can die. zhen de hen tong ku ni zhi dao ma? i few more months and weeks i going to NS le i will miss you deadly. I really need you back but i know answer is cannot but nevermind. Thanks for the day that you given me pei-ing me and
You asked me this question before 'Hais do you still love me?' and i already know the answer when you haven say out. Time to fade you will fade. Time to give up you will give up. Time to say good bye to me i will say good bye to you first. i really miss you badly. hais really envy that guy that be with you right now. jealous and hurt = DIE! >,<
You asked me this question before 'Hais do you still love me?' and i already know the answer when you haven say out. Time to fade you will fade. Time to give up you will give up. Time to say good bye to me i will say good bye to you first. i really miss you badly. hais really envy that guy that be with you right now. jealous and hurt = DIE! >,<
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
TheStory
Now already 5.20am in the morning but i still post,
TheStory : When i was in secondary school i already think of commit suicide. dont ask me why, only some of my friends know why. Hmmm when i was in sec 2 i don't know what is love until sec 4 graduated den slowly understand what is love but still not sure, until i met a girl that live near me which i met her on East Coast Park and she is the one brighten my day up when i feel sick lonely and sad plus she is the girl who thought me and gave me what real love is. Until now my mindset still all about her, is already 5mths yet i still cant forget about her. i really regretted what i had done in the past to you ,etc never treat u well or ...... , but i know now no use of saying it, cause u got boyfriend now, but i still wanna to said thanks for the 4mths we been together, hoping you will come back, but i know is impossible, its alright. but I'm really happy for you that you got boyfriend le. hahas, last long with him ba. i have nothing to say le.
thanks for taking care of me when we are at JP last time when I'm dizzy + sickness. and 9.56pm the show is the first time you came to my house watch the show after that pei you go home. hais, nevermind takecare my lover, hope u happy everyday. don't study so much when you got headache and rest well plus relax more often (: . I'm finally happy le Yeah hahas ;D
TheStory : When i was in secondary school i already think of commit suicide. dont ask me why, only some of my friends know why. Hmmm when i was in sec 2 i don't know what is love until sec 4 graduated den slowly understand what is love but still not sure, until i met a girl that live near me which i met her on East Coast Park and she is the one brighten my day up when i feel sick lonely and sad plus she is the girl who thought me and gave me what real love is. Until now my mindset still all about her, is already 5mths yet i still cant forget about her. i really regretted what i had done in the past to you ,etc never treat u well or ...... , but i know now no use of saying it, cause u got boyfriend now, but i still wanna to said thanks for the 4mths we been together, hoping you will come back, but i know is impossible, its alright. but I'm really happy for you that you got boyfriend le. hahas, last long with him ba. i have nothing to say le.
thanks for taking care of me when we are at JP last time when I'm dizzy + sickness. and 9.56pm the show is the first time you came to my house watch the show after that pei you go home. hais, nevermind takecare my lover, hope u happy everyday. don't study so much when you got headache and rest well plus relax more often (: . I'm finally happy le Yeah hahas ;D
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Moodless
i don't know what to say. Today when i woke up i ji dao heard a xi bei sadness thingy and my tears start to drop abit and heng i control it. i this few weeks before sleep think many past thingy keep ly on bed roll and look at my wall for 2hours or more den that den can sleep. sleep awhile wake up suddenly think of her. make me drop tears non stop.
Why some people cannot born just like a human being? why human cannot just be like human lehs? why born out got weirdweird stuff??? i everytime look at my parts of my body i really dam moodless like fcuking hell and dont know what to comments. i keep tryin to smile to myself when i saw some of my parts of body and i know is retarded right but bo bian i dont wanna drop my tears anymore but i noe i cant do it. i really damn envy other people lor. i really still dont know why am i born out into this world. fucking god , go die la hor or make me disappear in this world.
Why some people cannot born just like a human being? why human cannot just be like human lehs? why born out got weirdweird stuff??? i everytime look at my parts of my body i really dam moodless like fcuking hell and dont know what to comments. i keep tryin to smile to myself when i saw some of my parts of body and i know is retarded right but bo bian i dont wanna drop my tears anymore but i noe i cant do it. i really damn envy other people lor. i really still dont know why am i born out into this world. fucking god , go die la hor or make me disappear in this world.
Friday, October 30, 2009
30 October 2009
wa so long no update le. so freaking bad mood, will my day come back? i don think so but i hope so. but i know wont be back de.
i ask myself this question again and again repeat and repeat again.
do i look strong infront of friend ?
its been so long i am still like that.
Soon going 2010year . Why cant my mindset be more happiness. i hope i can go back to the imm giant working place to start all over again.
i ask myself this question again and again repeat and repeat again.
do i look strong infront of friend ?
its been so long i am still like that.
Soon going 2010year . Why cant my mindset be more happiness. i hope i can go back to the imm giant working place to start all over again.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
10 October 2009
Now is 5.41am yet i still blog.
This sentences i write to u 'we stead we break is my fault, and you don already love me why i mus continue love u til now' cause i just cant let it go but i have to. why i make myself til so xingku. At first i thought i and u stead together we will last long more den your ex but im wrong we are not even last long den ur ex. you said yourself a failure but i dont tink u are failure cause im the one who create it, cause you alway concern care love me but im jus a fucker and you are not failure im the one is the most useless stupid failure and im jus a passerby to you afterall last few months we had been together. I thought we can be forever then all couples and you told me you also thought we can be together forever but who changed so fast? ANSWER is me im changed. im changed to no longer last time care concern abt u liao. but i regreted!! so what if i regreted . time oso cannot turn back . I had to accept the fact what. and you of cause easy say those sentences to me cause the painful and mei ren yao is me lehs not you. YA last time you painful so now retribution liao right i now suffering more painful then your last time.
i think my this post not emo already hor?.
hais why i go eastcoastpark! why i stay bukitbatok! why am i born out!
This sentences i write to u 'we stead we break is my fault, and you don already love me why i mus continue love u til now' cause i just cant let it go but i have to. why i make myself til so xingku. At first i thought i and u stead together we will last long more den your ex but im wrong we are not even last long den ur ex. you said yourself a failure but i dont tink u are failure cause im the one who create it, cause you alway concern care love me but im jus a fucker and you are not failure im the one is the most useless stupid failure and im jus a passerby to you afterall last few months we had been together. I thought we can be forever then all couples and you told me you also thought we can be together forever but who changed so fast? ANSWER is me im changed. im changed to no longer last time care concern abt u liao. but i regreted!! so what if i regreted . time oso cannot turn back . I had to accept the fact what. and you of cause easy say those sentences to me cause the painful and mei ren yao is me lehs not you. YA last time you painful so now retribution liao right i now suffering more painful then your last time.
i think my this post not emo already hor?.
hais why i go eastcoastpark! why i stay bukitbatok! why am i born out!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
07 October 2009
Hmm why my mind just cant stop thinkin of YOU. its already been 5mths le lehs. knn sia.
you easy forgot me cause you maybe got guy jio you or you admire someone already but me lehs , or you already got boyfriend le. but me lehs FUCK UP. angry myself hate myself.
its already quite long le yet i still cant give up on you and erase you at my mind. Mani of my friend tell me Cheerup dont wei le yi ge nu hai sad not worth it. i told them you think i wan sad de mehs? i keep tell myself when is my deadline of die. i should just die and vanish in this stupid world. LOVE is just a hurtful danger thing den anything else. My blog my post all is emo emo emo. When will be the Day that bright me up. Full of darkness i having now. So scary lor. I jus being so noob sia. already 5months le lehs!!
you easy forgot me cause you maybe got guy jio you or you admire someone already but me lehs , or you already got boyfriend le. but me lehs FUCK UP. angry myself hate myself.
its already quite long le yet i still cant give up on you and erase you at my mind. Mani of my friend tell me Cheerup dont wei le yi ge nu hai sad not worth it. i told them you think i wan sad de mehs? i keep tell myself when is my deadline of die. i should just die and vanish in this stupid world. LOVE is just a hurtful danger thing den anything else. My blog my post all is emo emo emo. When will be the Day that bright me up. Full of darkness i having now. So scary lor. I jus being so noob sia. already 5months le lehs!!
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